WTF man. This is messed up.

I didn’t even know this girl well.

However, because of my present state, something of value had to have been placed on her. I can walk past the most beautiful woman and not be drawn to her. I can pass Jesus on the sidewalk and not give a glance. How would this girl that I don’t know well, that isn’t the most beautiful person in the world, one that I don’t wish to spend the rest of my life with or even see benefit from friendship… how did this girl acquire some value to me?

That is the question that I need the answer to.